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Live Set List – Songs
Song sets are customized to each audience (and per request). A typical 60-90 minute set will include 7-10 songs. (Note: Below is not a full list of songs as new ones are continually being written. More are added to the site periodically)

1. Missing
2. Not Your Tool
3. Letting Go
4. Clear
5. On The Edge
6. Broken
7. To Surrender
8. Swore I’d Never
9. All In With You
10. Not Gonna Waste It
11. Satisfied
12. It’s Not Fair
13. This Fight
14. Become
15. Happy To Feel
16. Bring It On
17. Purpose
18. Release
19. Won’t Stop
20. Grace
21. Burns in Me
22. Finally Alive


Missing

It was just a harmless little fix, that caught me off, I didn’t realize.
What happened?

I tried to drown out all the pain. All I wanted was something anything.
Through all the need it’s still the same, and something’s missing.

I’ve tried everything, to see everything, to feel everything, to live it all.
So why am I still here, empty?

So I keep doing what I’ve done. I know it’s not the answer, but I don’t know what else to do.
I tried to drown out all the pain. All I wanted was something anything.
Through all the need it’s still the same, and something’s missing.

I’ve tried everything, to see everything, to feel everything, to live it all.
So why am I still here, empty?
Is there something that’s real? Something that’s real? Give me something that’s real.
I’ve tried everything, to see everything, to feel everything, to live it all. So why am I still here, empty?

It’s been so long, it’s hard to see. Lost here in this dark complacency,
till we can’t see. We don’t even realize; what we’re missing.

Is there something that’s real? Something that’s real? Give me something that’s real.
I’ve tried everything, to see everything, to feel everything, to live it all.
So why am I still here?
I just want something real.
Give me something that’s real.
Is there something that’s real?

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Not Your Tool

Knowing you, you always have a plan.
Treat me like I’m gold like your best friend,
Till I let you in. Let my guard down; turn my head.
You take every shot you can, below the belt
Till you take me down.

I won’t give you the satisfaction.
You’ve had your fun, and left me with this mess.
You got me then, the subtle lies you fed,
But I’m not your tool, stay out of my head.

Let you in too intimately, you know exactly,
how to press and pry yourself back in.
I took your candy coated poison.
I finally realize, feeding me your endless promises,
false promises, I’m through with your lies.

I won’t give you the satisfaction.
You’ve had your fun, and left me with this mess.
You got me then, the subtle lies you fed,
But I’m not your tool, stay out of my head.

You want me dead, your plans got one problem;
I’m not alone.
The more that you try to beat down and break me,
The stronger it makes me become.
Now I can see, I do not need you,
I’m taking my life back.
You’re on your own, enjoy your own misery,
I’m taking my life back.

I won’t give you the satisfaction.
You’ve had your fun, and left me with this mess.
You got me then, the subtle lies you fed,
But I’m not your tool, stay out of my head.

Through with your games,
I won’t let you play me this way
I’m taking my life back.
I won’t take this anymore,
I won’t let you play me this way,
I’m taking my life back. I’m not your little tool.

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Letting Go

Eyes open, but I can’t see,
chose this road, and it consumed me.
Tired of the test, but I haven’t learned.

I’m down here on my knees, begging you.
Help me see, what I’m missing.
What am I missing, that makes me so incapable to fix myself.

Don’t want to lose it all, to accept the fact, this will kill me.
Why can’t I see? Why can’t I feel when I know this will kill me?

I’ve tried everything I know,
see what good it’s done.
I’m still drowning.
I’m down here on my knees, begging you,
tear me away.

Where do I go from here?
There’s nothing left in me.
I’m down here on my knees, begging you,
tear me away from these lies
before they kill me.

I’m letting go, take my soul.
Make me whole, please, here’s my soul.

Where do I go from here?
There’s nothing left in me.
I’m down here on my knees, begging you,
tear me away from these lies
before they kill me.
Got nothing left in me.

I’m letting go, take my soul.
Make me whole, please, here’s my soul.

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Clear

The colors grey.
The scars are deep for the life I’ve made.
These memories, that brought me to this point again.
These open wounds, please help me heal from them.

The colors change.
The sun is on my face, and the shadows fade,
and I remember ..everything.
I’m trying to change.
Take this away. Take this away
Take this all away

I can’t believe; how far off this had taken me.
All I’ve wasted, all the time this has cost me
All of the lies and the anguish this brought me.
Please, don’t let me fall back
From the one thing that’s real; and everything’s clear.

I wish I could say, I was strong enough by myself.
I wish I could say, this was finally all behind me.
I realize now I need you
Don’t let me go I will give, what I can.
All I am.

I can’t believe; how far off this had taken me.
All I’ve wasted, all the time this has cost me
All of the lies and the anguish this brought me.
Please, don’t let me fall back
From the one thing that’s real; and everything’s clear.

And I can see.
And I can feel my life again and I am free.
This is worth everything.

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On The Edge

I can see now, I can see everything.
I am free now this is behind me. This is finally behind me.

I won’t let this pull me down, I will not give in.
I won’t let this pull me down, I will not give in, or give up control.

When I look at myself honestly, this is still engrained in me.
I keep saying I do not want this, but there’s still a part of me, that does.

But I won’t let this pull me down. I will not give in, or give up now.
I won’t let this pull me down, I will not give in, or give up control.
I won’t let this take me down, I may be on the edge, but I’m still in control.

Why is this pulling at me?
Why’s this still pulling at me?
Why can’t I see? Just let this go? I just need something, something to get this out of me.
What will this take? Anything? Just give me some release. Anything!
How can this still be so blinding?
I feel myself, I feel myself sliding.
Sliding, sliding.
There’s no way to turn back from here. I’ve lost too much ground. What’s the use?
I’m in too deep now, I can’t see anything else.
I can’t believe I’m here.
I can’t even feel enough, I can’t even feel enough to care
That I’m falling-

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Broken

Don’t know what to say, I have no excuse.
What more could I do? What more can I do?
I’ve never quite won. It’s never enough.

I’ve been here a thousand times before, so what’s going to change this time?
All that I know is I still can’t let go even though it’s the one thing that’s holding me down.

Lift this from me. Please fix me from the inside.

You know it’s more than I could fathom, so much harder than I imagined.
If only there’d been some way I could have felt,
could have seen, could have known what this’d taken me through.

Lift this from me. It’s all I’m asking.
I’ve been here a thousand times before, so what’s going to change this time?
I’m still scarred and broken at the core, so all this remains.

I need this to change.
Lift this from me. Please fix me, fix me.
There’s nothing else I can say, just will you take me?

So here I am now, exposed before you.
All that I am; here before you.
Will you please, just take me as I am?

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To Surrender

My shaking knuckles clenched and white, this never ending fight.
I’ve held on, I’ve been strong. What can I show for it?
I’m falling back and I’m losing control.
I can’t live this way.

So please, help me let go, to surrender this wasted soul.
So please help me let go.
You know, You know how I tried.
You know how desperately I’ve tried, and it never was enough.
It will never be enough.

When I look at everything I’ve done, it’s pretty sad, how little I have learned.

So please, help me let go, to surrender this wasted soul.
So please help me let go.
You know, You know how I tried.
You know how desperately I’ve tried, and it never was enough.
It will never be enough.
Please take this away.

And so we will struggle this way, until we yield,
til we finally understand, where true strength comes.

So please, help me let go.
I won’t live this way. I can’t live this way.
I won’t live this way anymore.
So please, help me let go.

You’re the only one able, I give You my soul.

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Swore I’d Never

All of there years, passing the blame,
for things that I’ve done, but you felt the shame.
You have every right, to be angry, disgusted and through.
You never disserved this.
Please do not trust me, I can’t even trust myself

Swore I wouldn’t lie to you.
Vowed I wouldn’t hurt you.
Swore I’d never betray you.
But I did.

I know you keep asking, why? How could I do this?
You know my excuses.
Until I take full responsibility, I will never change

Swore I wouldn’t lie to you.
Vowed I wouldn’t hurt you.
Swore I’d never betray you.
But I did.

Earning your trust will take time,
and my actions must prove it.
I want to stay here with you, but either way you choose,
I’ve just got to fix me.

Swore I wouldn’t lie to you.
Vowed I wouldn’t hurt you.
Swore I’d never betray you.
But I did.

Do what you’d like, this is your life.
I got no right to sway you.
It’s never enough, never enough,
I know I can’t change what I’ve done.
I’ll do all I can, all that I can,
though I know it will not be enough.
I’d give you it all, to give you relief.

I pray you find peace, by God’s grace.
By God’s grace

If I could undue this, if I could undue this,
I would, I would.

I pray somehow something good,
can come from this,
for you.

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This Fight

It’s been a long time. It’s been a long fight.
Despite all I’ve done, and the wars I’ve not won,
I will not give up this fight.
I won’t lose this fight. We will win this fight
There is no question, we will win this.

Despite all I’ve done, and the wars I’ve not won,
I will not give up this fight.
For all that I’ve done, and everything I’ve tried so many times, over and over.
I will not, I will not fall back, I will not fall back to those lies

Despite all I’ve done, you’re the reason I’ve won.
You’re the reason I’ve won.

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Become

I’ve made up my mind, there’s no looking back, no room for doubt.
This is who I am. It’s my reality.

More real than now, it’s all I can see.
More clear than now, it’s all I can see.

This will become, it’s everything there is, as I can just see and just let go.
I look to you now, to open the way.

More real than now, it’s all I can see.
More clear than now, it’s all I can see.
I will not back down, it’s how this will be.

All that I have, because you asked of me.
All I’ve become, because you asked of me.
All that I am, because you carried me.

With you. With you, to gain everything.
This will become, it’s already done.

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Happy To Feel

So far past gone, don’t know what to say,
Just need an escape.
I’m stuck in this place ; I cannot even see right in front of me.

All that I know, is what I’ve seen, what I’ve learned, what I’ve lived, what I’ve won
But I’ve been stretched to far past what I’ve ever felt and its breaking me.

I’m crushed, down on my face,
And I don’t know how much I can take, but I’m happy..
To feel.

Breaking me down and it’s scraping me out
I’m crippled and cut down, ripped apart raw
As you’re purging the pain, purging the pain and the need…I don’t need
How can I walk when I can’t even get on my knees?
As long as you’re here, I’m happy to feel it

You know, you know how I tried, you know how I tried,
I’m losing my mind.
It’s still not enough and it keeps adding up.
I do not even know why I try.

I’m crushed, down on my face,
And I don’t know how much I can take, but I’m happy..
To feel.

Breaking me down and it’s scraping me out
I’m crippled and cut down, ripped apart raw
As you’re purging the pain, purging the pain and the need…I don’t need

How can I walk when I can’t even get on my knees?

As long as you’re here, I’m happy to feel it.
I don’t care,  I’ll take it all with you
Cause I know where it takes me. To feel it all.

As long as you’re here, I’m happy to feel it
I don’t care,  I’ll take it all with you
Cause I know where it takes me.
As long as you’re here, as long as you’re here.

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Release

I’m straining just to see, I’m struggling just to feel.
I’m trying to submit, but I still..
You’ve never let me down, so why would I doubt?
You’ve never let me down, so I look to you.

How I look to you now, here I am again
I look to you now. I will not fall back, I won’t look back now

I’m trying to let go.
I can’t do this anymore.
So I reach, on my knees.
I look to you. It feels like I’m falling-
and I’m begging you, I need you now.

How I look to you now
Here I am again
I look to you now
I’ve given all this up; let everything go
I feel free. You release me.
How it heals me. How you save me.
I thank you. Thank you.

How you save me.
How you save me, as you lift me out.
I am free. I am free as you carry me.
As you carry me.
You’ve always carried me.

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Won’t Stop

You thought I was beat.
Don’t you wish it were only that easy.
Now I’m just peeved, still cleaning up all the damage you’ve done.
So you want a fight.
Promise you then it’s gonna get ugly

The harder you try, to beat down and break me,
the harder I fight.
You won’t beat me.

You can’t break me.
Can’t stop me cause I will never,
stop fighting you,
Can’t break me.
Can’t stop me cause I will never,
stop till I’ve won.

I’m ready to play,
though I know you will pull all you can just to stop me.
But I’ve come to see,
how to thwart all your actions to stop me

The harder you try, to beat down and break me,
the harder I fight.
You won’t beat me

You can’t break me.
Can’t stop me cause I will never,
stop fighting you,
Can’t break me.
Can’t stop me cause I will never,
stop till I’ve won.

Won’t stop till I’ve won.

Now I can see.
I’ve always had legions behind me
You can still try, but you know with them,
You cannot stop me.
You cannot stop me.

You can’t break me.
Can’t stop me cause I will never,
stop fighting you,
Can’t break me.
Can’t stop me cause I will never,
stop till I’ve won.

Won’t stop till we’ve won.
Won’t stop till we’ve won.

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Grace

I’ve got a life full of experiences; I wouldn’t change now, for anything.
Looking back now, it’s easy to see, everything, I’ve been missing.

It could have played out either way, but it all worked out, because of You.
It could have gone either way, but it all works out, because of You.

You’re the reason I survived. You’re the reason, I’m still alive.
I’m still alive. I’m finally alive.

It could have gone either way, but it all works out, because of You.
It could have gone either way, it’s so much better than before, because of You,
following You.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.

It’s worth everything. It’s worth everything we will ever go through.
Because of You, It’s worth more than anything.

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Burns In Me

I look at all that I’ve become, despite myself and all I’ve done.
Everything has opened up to me,
All the things that I could never see.

After wasted years stuck inside myself I finally see,
What I’ve been missing, what I’ve been missing.
And all, I can say,
It’s so good.

I’ve always had this need, that burns in me.
It’s always been driving me, to just do more.
I’m finally satisfied, because I’m finally where I need to be.

The more I give, the more I gain.
Nothing I’ve done of myself,
And everything, just keeps getting better.
It just keeps getting better.

I’ve always had this need, that burns in me.
It’s always been driving me, to just do more.
I’m finally satisfied, because I’m finally where I need to be.

I look at all the trash I’ve done and put myself through.
All of this in vain, and it gave me nothing.
But if this was the only way to get me here, it was worth it.
It was all worth it.
It’s always been driving me, to just do more.

I’m finally satisfied, because I’m finally where I need to be.
Where I need to be.
And I’m finally alive.

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Finally Alive

It’s been so long, but it makes it that much more sweet.
And all I can say, is what I know.
Everything always gets better,
the more we submit and we give
This is how it is and it only gets better.

Despite all I’ve done, I’ve still gained everything
I’ve gained everything.
Nothing, I’ve done of myself, but I’m finally alive, because You saved me.
You’ve saved me.
Thank you. I’m finally alive.

It just keeps getting better, as we get closer
It only gets better.
Because of You, I’m finally alive.


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